I should really be doing my Final paper in SocSci2 but I really can't focus.

I am really blessed with friends who would always listen to me even if i talk nonsense. So many questions are lurking in my mind right now. I admit that I have so many faults w/ what has happened. I always want to look at it as if I was the innocent one. But I know that it's a big lie. I know that I should still be blamed for prolonging-- whatever it is that is bothering me. I was afraid. I was happy at being pampered in some ways. I was happy just as any girl would be. But then, here it is. Again, I need to face reality that I must make the decision. I must spill it out. I cannot redo the damage, what I can only do is to control it. But is it what I really want to do? For what I know, it is what I MUST do. Then came... It really made things more complicated. I don't know what to do, what to act. I know that I could not move on without first closing the previous chapter. I am also afraid to do the same errors like that of the previous chapter.

Relatively, I really don't have that big of a problem. I am just the one making complications out of it.

So now, I will try to forget all of this and transform to the focus-cram mode.